I have been sick for over 5 days now.
From sore throat, fever, coughing, head and body aches to a sneezing, runny, raw, red plugged up nose.
I've got it all.
and nothing seems to be touching it.
I have had to call in sick at work more than once this week and today I was so exhausted from it all that I was late for a meeting.
It's been so inconvenient!!!
But if there is one thing I have learned from living with a chronic autoimmune disease, it's that healing is not convenient.
It's not convenient to call in sick for work because your body needs the extra rest.
It's not convenient to remember to take your supplements and herbs before each meal.
It's not convenient to miss that dinner party because you have an acupuncture, massage or chiropractic appointment.
It's not convenient to be late for the meeting because you allowed your aching muscles a little more rest in bed this morning.
It's not convenient to order the soup and salad, dressing on the side while the rest of your family is enjoying pizza night.
It's not convenient to to move and exercise your body in a healing, loving way each and everyday.
It's not convenient to constantly be looking out for gluten, dairy, nightshades, excess sugar and GMO's on the ingredient list.
It's not convenient to turn off the TV and instead pick up a book that feeds your mind and soul.
It's not convenient to leave the party two hours early because you know your body needs more sleep than most.
It's not convenient to ask for help from those around you when you need it.
It's not convenient to read this long ass list of things that are so damn inconvenient and time consuming and darn right frustrating to do at times!!
No, it may not be convenient to heal.
In fact, I can guarantee it's not going to be convenient.
It's not going to be easy.
It's not going to be pretty.
But it's going to be worth it.
It's going to be worth it on the days when you wake up filled with joy and energy.
It's going to be worth it to run after your children at the playground again.
It's going to be worth it to have the strength to take that trip you've been dreaming about.
It's going to be worth it, to live the rest of your days knowing that even though it was inconvenient, you listened to your body, you loved it, you cared for it, each and everyday.
You can either live your life in an unhealthy, numb, "convenient" state, watching seemingly helplessly as your body, mind and soul deteriorate.
Or you can take responsibility, listen to what your body and soul is screaming out for, and know that you are worth the inconvenience.